Friday, November 5, 2010

Souls Aren't Responsible For What They Say

"It was true what he told me,............. He hadn't lied. I had my suspicions, though, because down-and-outers like that tend to be off their rockers. There's a degree of destitution when the mind doesn't always stay with the body. It's too uncomfortable. What's talking to you is practically a disembodied soul. And a soul isn't responsible for what it says."
                                                         Celine

Sex and Madness

   I'm of the firm belief that without sex, you could quite possibly go crazy. I know the chemicals released during and after, are pain numbing, and rid you of depression for a short period. That's the case in my respect. I believe in monogamy. I'm married, It's always consenting, and never forced. I don't believe in the crimes that are committed mainly against women to be anything, but disgusting and reprehensible. Nothing like those atrocities should ever happen to anyone. Rape and molestation, abuse of any kind is not acceptable. Verbal, Physical, whatever, not acceptable from anyone. Anything like this should be pursued to the fullest extent of the law. I'd probably go beyond, but then I'd be no better.
    In spite of that, two consenting adult's in my opinion is right. It doesn't matter if you're straight, gay, whatever. I really don't care. Sex between two people in love is exciting and very fulfilling. The relaxation is pretty much immediate upon climax. If you have an illness, you should notice the symptoms let up for a while. Even if for only an hour or two afterwards. It will however, generally put some pep, and a smile in you, and your partner for the day. It will improve the relationship. It's only my opinion, but hey, it seems to work wonders for my wife and myself. Talking is quite important in any healthy relationship. But so is the physical, which also plays an important role. All in all without good amount of talking, which I learned is important from my wife. Many, many years ago. Plus without a healthy sex life. Your relationship is probably going to tank, or maybe stumble around like some drunk bastard. Perhaps even waddle over the abyss.
    You have to work at having a good relationship. I mean really work, that doesn't mean always having to say, your sorry. However if you need to you need too. There is no getting around it. Growing up means taking responsibility for you actions. If you can't do that you shouldn't be having sex, or be in a relationship. I'm also a parent and that probably comes through a wee bit.
    Schizoaffective disorder claims a lot of us with the illness lives. It's always painful, but after awhile you just stop bitchin'. Because who wants to hear it. Without someone there to help pick you up. You just have to do it yourself, dust your pants, and wash your face. It really sucks, believe me I know. You can never really truly convey what's happening to you.
     I always try to break it down to simple thing the doctors and nurses may have experienced. It really seems to expedite your treatment. For an example say something like this, " You know when you hear a loud bang, and you feel like your kinda deaf, but still can almost make out what people are saying through the ring." Now I elaborate to what I might be feeling, and what I might say is, " I have the same sort of thing going on. Except I haven't heard a loud bang. I'm having a hard time getting all the noises and voices right. But all the noise from inside the room, in combination with the people talking in the hall is like mental torture."  I also try to have sex the day before I see my doctor. It seems to lighten my mood. Shower is pretty mandatory, of course. I mean I would do it. I'm trying to show you, both a little of what I go through, and a pep talk for my disjointed thinking, brothers and sisters out there.

Mahalo.