Deathly sadness and Black Coffee

 It's coffee, coffee and sadness. I wake up make coffee, and muddle through the day feeling mired in quicksand. I cry daily, and smile through the tears for others. Sometimes I can't even do that. Well death will come and I will die. It will take away this painful existence. Sure I know it will get better, but right now it doesn't seem like it. I can't move my bones or brain. This is a depressing post. I'm just glad no one will read this.

A way home (CRAP TO READ)

  In all the ways, I cannot find the truth. The truth to be revealed to me. In so much of my life, I find the pain, torment to be a comfort for while shifting is a steady distraction from other parts of life. That I cannot find my bearings in anyway shape or form. The only form, I possess is painful and unenlightened through the day a confusing existential one.          YOU KNOW WHAT!!! THIS IS BORING SHIT, AND BARELY UNDERSTANDABLE. I MEAN EXCEPT TO MY CRAZY BRAIN.


P.s. This stuff is meant to spill my soul, and since pain is soulless, I guess I am too. Sad, sad, and illogically the answer to my question. It doesn't reflect on a my life's meaning though. Still haven't found the door on that one.

Golden Years (Are they now or yesterday?)

I find this dated song to be ringing true to this day. So fuck it and Surrender, end it or live it.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bR8D4Uybtzs&feature=related

Can I play with madness.(Iron Maiden) Fitting for my idiot self

I feared only one thing in my life and I played and lost.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xSZbbTjM0Es

There are Days, I feel like sleeping in forever!

I find it hard to even think of another moment awake. Dead Awake, and behind the bars of my screwed mind.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAPy64IgG58&feature=BFa&list=PLB73877ACE50A4C57&lf=mh_lolz

What NOT to do to learn how to get money, and cars.

I think some things mimic life a little to realistically? What do you have to say to this?http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8fDdI-qWixk&NR=1

Johnson&johnson (what they really think.)

I find it hard not to believe more companies are not like this.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1X2JsAqB2o&feature=related